Same same

  

Same roads

Same lanes

Different paths

Different names

 

This roundabout stretches for eternity

I fear this is what I’ve made to be


The ride is getting sicker and sicker now spinning endlessly

I fear this is what I’ve made to be


                                     Stuck

                                  Stranded

                                   Trembling

                                  Sickening 

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